The Nerd Returns

But not like before...

This is me dressed up as a flamingo a few weeks ago. Yeah…

It has been some time since I have written on here, so I thought that I would just come out and say hi. A LOT has changed in my life since June, when I last wrote a post. Sometimes the changes are so fast and so big that I have to remind myself what is different from yesterday.

First, I should probably tell you what happened to me. I had a fabulous trip to Europe in June. I spent most of June in France, England, and Scotland. I had a wonderful time. Before I left, I had been working way more than I should have been. I was overdoing it. So the trip reset me, in a way that only a once in a lifetime month-long European road trip can do. I just couldn’t go at the pace that I had been going, so I dropped it all - including this newsletter. My apologies if you were hanging on my every word and then I abandoned you. (I am giggling as I say this because I doubt that many of you were - I think have less than 10 subscribers and half are my family. If you are a non-family subscriber, let me just send you a hug emoji too! 🥰 Welcome to the family!)

So after my trip, I decided to let go of the frantic pace of trying to start a side hustle with The Spreadsheet Nerd - planning, filming & editing 3 short videos each week for IG, writing a newsletter each week that had some sort of theme to it. My day job is exhausting and doing all that on top of it just about killed me.

In the meantime, my husband has been at home for over a year trying to start his own business. Like most business startups, he struggled to get it off the ground. So, with some sadness and some relief, we have decided that we are going to let that go as well. That was last week.

Without going into a huge amount of details on all that story, I will just say that all of this has left me with a hole in my heart. Both “businesses” were a dream that my husband and I have shared for many years and the reality of the difficulty of actually creating a side business for either of us leaves me feeling unmoored.

I love being a librarian, but I can’t do this job forever. Being a librarian is less demanding than being a classroom teacher, but still incredibly demanding. I don’t know how classroom teachers do it. I really don’t. I am very lucky to have the job that I have too. I love my kids. They make me cry, laugh, and freak me out when they are sick and try to hug me.

So what to do about this gaping hole in my heart? I want to do something that is manageable but that hopefully one day will turn into something that is my own creation, my own little gift to humanity. I am not going to be a person who posts something every week, but I want to share what I am working on. So if that interests you, stick around. It’s gonna be messy. When life is crazy, I will stop posting for a while. I just will. But I will never stop creating, because it is just part of my DNA. Thanks for being a part of it too. Leave me a comment if you read this far and let me know your story! Who are you and what brought you here? I’d love to chat.